__2005-10-05 @ 4:02 p.m._______
The love I've known for the past two years has completely fallen apart. I miss him but I don't miss being with him. I've found someone who makes me really happy, but there's something keeping me from wanting another relationship. The past month has been so hard. This new guy is there for me for everything but the fact that knowing that the past two years is over and that so much has changed and I'm on my own now, it's hard to deal with.
I fear change.
My razorblade and safetypin has become my best friend again. I wish this pain would go away.
Yesterday ||Tomorrow
